1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
Today is a mushy day. Why do you ask? Well, because I feel accomplished from my uber productive weekend. I feel good about the week. I am taking care of my girls and our tiny apartment so far so good. Could be better with the money, but honestly I am so bad at that so I am content in knowing that we always have good food, and all the things we need. God is providing. Cause he is good.
My oldest is home from school today. Too sick. Asthma is a real bitch. I have had it forever and My oldest and youngest both have it too. It is terrible to watch your child suffer. Especially when you know how it feels.
Another wonderful thing. I will be doing a ton of work this week, and next week too so money should come in and June should be all paid for. It’s gonna be a good week.
So mushy is a good thing. It means that currently the melancholy is at bay. It is not harrasing me and making me sad and droopy. I am feeling good, and happy today. Lord keep away the rain today, I wish to walk in my parade. 🙂
As for this post being anything more than some randomly posted crap. Well, love is wonderful and I feel loved today. So I want to spread it around. So if you are reading this, then I love you. Don’t worry, this isn’t the stalker kind of love. All of my stalkee positions are currently full so you will have to wait till I have an opening. No, this is a friendly, I hope you life is wonderful today and always kinda love. It is a be blessed because even if everything sucks, God loves you, and he will help you get it all back together. I know he will. Because this time last year I was lost. I was in a loveless marriage, I had no hope. I just figured I would stay where I was because it was too hard to do anything else.
But then after the whole thing with Dick, the controlling crazy that my husband turned into after that, and the fun and unhappy emotional crap that comes with all of that I am free today. No, I am not divorced yet. It is forth coming soon to a court house near me. But I am no longer controlled emotionally by others. I am just me. I finally feel like the me that I was before I consumed myself with my husband is finally back.
Yes I went a little crazy since that freedom happened, with 9 tattoos and some body piercings. And more to come for sure. I have to say that these are things I had longed to do years ago but had been told no. So I am just catching upfor lost time. Sometimes you have to do that. Catch up on the things that you have missed.
So if you feel trapped no matter your situation, remember that the only one who can free you is GOD. He is amazing and he has set me free. I am so thankful for his love and his care during this hard time as I have jumped out of my safety net into his arms even when I couldn’t see him holding them out, and I am happy to say that I feel straight into his hands. He was waiting for me to jump all along.
With all my love,