The fight against Futility

noun, plural futilities for 2, 3. 1. the quality of being futile; ineffectiveness;uselessness. 2. a trifle or frivolity: the large collection of futilities that clutter ourminds. 3. afutileact or event. I am struggling. Perhaps we will say today has been a struggle. I think that the good days for sure outnumber the ones where I feel I am fighting the tide. I have realized the error in my ways. The reasons that I am struggling. I have... Continue Reading →

It’s yours now

An odd thing happened the other day. I got a message from Carlos that asked if I wanted the pictures that he had of me and the girls from almost 2 years ago. Of course I want those pictures. So I arranged for him to bring me a disc. To my surprise he brought a box... Continue Reading →

The lessons I learned from Men

All of my life I have met boys and men. Each of them starting from boyfriend number one all the way down to my most amazing Joseph has taught me something. Boyfriend number one: Nelson This boyfriend lasted throughout years of learning. I was twelve when he was my boyfriend the first time and after... Continue Reading →


Life is crazy. I ran into one of my bridesmaids while working my drive thru at Starbucks. Her name is Cat, and she is awesome. I don't know her anymore but I am hoping to fix that. Funny thing is, we are both divorced now. I find it so interesting the way life goes. I also... Continue Reading →

Another sleepless morning

I can really call it a sleepless night when I climbed into bed at nearly one am. Working till the bucks closes and then trying to sleep is sometimes hardly effective. Today I don't work till 6pm so I don't care that I find myself awake with the midget (my youngest) at 5am. I got... Continue Reading →


An interesting thing happened to me today. I felt the urge to call Dick. If you have read back far enough you know the entire story of what happened with him, and if not you should. If for no other reason than I wrote some good girl porn in it. Anyways, I called him on... Continue Reading →


Omission –noun 1. the act of omitting. 2. the state of being omitted. 3. something left out, not done, or neglected: an important omission in a report. I cannot lie. I just really can't. It is one of those things that I just totally suck at. If someone asks me a direct question I am... Continue Reading →


Wasted –adjective 1. waste ( defs. 26–28 ) . 2.done to no avail; useless: wasted efforts. 3. physically or psychologically exhausted; debilitated: to be wasted by a long illness. Yesterday I got totally wasted. By definition this means that I drank way too much with way too little in my stomach. One of our very... Continue Reading →

Time Vampires

Vampires –noun 1. a preternatural being, commonly believed to be a reanimated corpse, that is said to suck the blood of sleeping persons at night. 2. (in Eastern European folklore) a corpse, animated by an undeparted soul or demon, that periodically leaves the grave and disturbs the living, until it is exhumed and impaled or... Continue Reading →


Alone –adjective (used predicatively) 1. separate, apart, or isolated from others: I want to be alone. 2. to the exclusion of all others or all else: One cannot live by bread alone. 3. unique; unequaled; unexcelled: He is alone among his peers in devotion to duty. Yes the title speaks for itself. Interestingly enough this... Continue Reading →

Time Limits

Limit –noun 1. the final, utmost, or furthest boundary or point as to extent, amount, continuance, procedure, etc.: the limit of his experience; the limit of vision. 2. a boundary or bound, as of a country, area, or district. Life has a time limit. It is a tragic concept that honestly even in my 30's... Continue Reading →

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