Waiting on God

"Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord." Most of us don't like waiting. There are some places for me where my patience abounds but when it comes to myself, I have no ability to wait. My expectations of how fast or how well I do something comes with little to no grace and... Continue Reading →

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Be Loved

I feel blessed. I look back at the Facebook feed and wonder how I got this far. My girls are growing so fast, and each day I have the chance to be my husband's wife. I literally don't need anything else. I know there are people on this planet striving for greatness. The recognition of... Continue Reading →

Too fast 

It goes too fast. I watched a video on Facebook showing a days perspective from both the mom and the little girl. What seems ordinary to us is magic to them. Kids can often see so much more than we can.  I want to see life through that lens. The lens that life is magical.... Continue Reading →

Selfish

I am selfish. I hope this doesn't surprise you. I have said on many occasions that I hate sharing my children with my ex. I continue to believe that a child deserves the best a parent can offer. He is losing his girls right before my eyes. I will not intervene. And I have warned... Continue Reading →

The fight against Futility

noun, plural futilities for 2, 3. 1. the quality of being futile; ineffectiveness;uselessness. 2. a trifle or frivolity: the large collection of futilities that clutter ourminds. 3. afutileact or event. I am struggling. Perhaps we will say today has been a struggle. I think that the good days for sure outnumber the ones where I feel I am fighting the tide. I have realized the error in my ways. The reasons that I am struggling. I have... Continue Reading →

Adversity

Adversity: noun, plural adversities for 2. 1.adverse fortune or fate; a condition marked by misfortune, calamity, or distress: A friend will show his or her true colors in timesof adversity. You can only grow stronger in situations that provide you with adversity. Defined above as calamity or distress. I am taking a deep breath this morning and trying to learn from adversity. What is affecting you so? Well I will tell you. I still find myself working at Starbucks. 2 years... Continue Reading →

Being Broken

Perhaps I didn’t realize that damage that I had sustained during my previous marriage. I didn’t realize that it had affected me so. In February I began battling my anxiety again. My head was filled with false thoughts, and old wounds were opened up and I was left feeling afraid. Scared of what each day might... Continue Reading →

They made it!

So we bought our wedding bands from a shop in China cause we are broke and because we liked them. Well I was starting to worry that they would arrive in time for the 31st. I started feeling anxious. This morning one of the two shipping tracking numbers they had given me said it had... Continue Reading →

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