Waiting on God

"Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord." Most of us don't like waiting. There are some places for me where my patience abounds but when it comes to myself, I have no ability to wait. My expectations of how fast or how well I do something comes with little to no grace and... Continue Reading →

Investing Time

Life is made up of a collection of moments. The moment you read this is the only one you have right now. We can’t live in the future of our plans any more than if we spend our days dwelling on the past that we can somehow change it. Those moments are gone. Left to... Continue Reading →

Choosing Victory

I have been on a journey of freedom this past three weeks. To open myself up to seeing all of the things that God wants to transform in my life and giving him the free reign to change me, to change my life and to shed light on my foot path. It is not easy.... Continue Reading →

A love letter

As I was finishing my prayers and my study, this love letter came to me. I pray that it blesses you as it has blessed me. God wants us to live in freedom. The key to freedom is what are we focused on? He wants to be our focus. Focus on anything other than him... Continue Reading →

Infinitesimal

in·fin·i·tes·i·mal (/ˌinfinəˈtes(ə)m(ə)l/) adjective 1. extremely small."an infinitesimal pause" minute, tiny, minuscule, extremely small, very small Our universe is so expansive. To consider how big we are in the grand scheme of things is to become overwhelmed by the magnitude of creation. We are in fact infinitesimal. So very small in the world, in the universe... Continue Reading →

Be Loved

I feel blessed. I look back at the Facebook feed and wonder how I got this far. My girls are growing so fast, and each day I have the chance to be my husband's wife. I literally don't need anything else. I know there are people on this planet striving for greatness. The recognition of... Continue Reading →

Too fast 

It goes too fast. I watched a video on Facebook showing a days perspective from both the mom and the little girl. What seems ordinary to us is magic to them. Kids can often see so much more than we can.  I want to see life through that lens. The lens that life is magical.... Continue Reading →

Happy Father’s Day

Dear Terry, I write this to you even though you are long gone from this earth. I don't know if you heart belonged to Jesus, so I truly can't say if we will ever see each other again. I want you to know that I am grateful for you. Every negative thing you said to... Continue Reading →

Selfish

I am selfish. I hope this doesn't surprise you. I have said on many occasions that I hate sharing my children with my ex. I continue to believe that a child deserves the best a parent can offer. He is losing his girls right before my eyes. I will not intervene. And I have warned... Continue Reading →

The fight against Futility

noun, plural futilities for 2, 3. 1. the quality of being futile; ineffectiveness;uselessness. 2. a trifle or frivolity: the large collection of futilities that clutter ourminds. 3. afutileact or event. I am struggling. Perhaps we will say today has been a struggle. I think that the good days for sure outnumber the ones where I feel I am fighting the tide. I have realized the error in my ways. The reasons that I am struggling. I have... Continue Reading →

The Empty Womb

At the prompting of my sister and husband I am taking a walk through my feelings today. See, I am struggling with the thought of never having another baby. Not just any baby. But my sweet husband's baby. I have always wanted four. Not sure why. When I left my ex I was sure I... Continue Reading →

#1113

The keys have been turned in. The door locked behind me. The place that started my freedom. Apartment #1113. I am only slightly melancholy that we moved. That place was tiny, and we had outgrown the space since our family had grown from 4 ladies roughing it, to a family of five with a man of... Continue Reading →

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